Listening to one of my faves (Leonard Cohen) on my laptop I am continuously drawn into the screen by the ever changing, morphing beauty of the ‘visualiser’ patterns. Just as my visual field has shrunk to the size of the screen, or the screen has ‘expanded’ to fill my visual field, my audio field has also shrunk to be filled by the low amped sound from the ‘top, the sound and vision from the little unit filling most of my consciousness. Briefly my thoughts go back to the Rose Garden where I did T’ai Chi this morning and contrasts the experiences. They seem so different: the synthesized audio-visual world in front of me compared to the organic world of this morning, with its sights, sounds and smells, of trees, birds, trickling water, running squirrels and people; the morning splinters of sunlight playing on spider-webs and the occasional falling of rose petals as I did my little chi dance in a gentle trance. I am reminded of something that happened about ten years ago.
Having gotten the Golden Gate bus from San Francisco to Tam Junction I stood on Shoreline Hwy in the warm midday sun hitching a ride to Green Gulch Farm (http://www.sfzc.org/ggf) where I was living at the time. The two women who stopped, Jessie & Coco, told me they’d been to a party on Muir Beach near Green Gulch a week or so ago, and one of them, Coco, had fallen asleep on the beach, to awake at dawn to the sound of crashing waves…she said ‘it was just like listening to a tape, only real’. I smiled at the juxtaposition….up to now I had thought of tapes as mimicking ‘reality’, but here the tape was more ‘real’ and the morning beach reminding Coco of the tape. They turned off the highway and drove down into Green Gulch to get a better look of the temple they had up to now only seen in passing from above.
Which ‘reality’ do we live in most, which do we prefer? My feeling is that we can experience peace in either or both, but for me there is a much deeper sense of completeness and at-one-ness (atonement?) in the ‘organic’ type, perhaps because we belong more fully to it. Maybe this difference will be attenuated over time, maybe even reversed.